"I think we can handle two children with disabilities if that's what happens." This was my thought as we discussed having a third child. We wanted to try again.
It was a go from the start. Confirming our determination to follow God's will. No one knew if this child would be O.K. but we were excited to have a new one on the way. Life was good with two beautiful girls, one six and the other ten months.
"No, it wasn't an accident!" I wanted to shout as I pushed away the feelings of judgement and guilt.
I thought others were staring at us; a very pregnant mom holding a nineteen month old on my hip.
I was excited to be pregnant. I was trusting in God.
I thought I could hear people say, "Can't you see what a 'mistake' you already have."
She is not a mistake! I argued in my head. We love her just the way she is!
"No, I don't want a test to see if the baby has a disability!" I told the doctor. This is a life knit together by God. This baby will be a blessing no matter what!
"WOW!, what was that?", I asked in fear.
He made his presence known with the hardest kick I'd ever felt. I hope all is well inside.
We didn't know.
It took energy and I was tired as I cared for her on the outside and the new one on the inside.
Oh, but so exciting to us to watch and wait for a this new life.
What will our future hold? We had hope.
"It's a boy! It's a boy! I knew you could do it!", his father shouted.
Yes, he had strong muscles in his legs like we had not seen before.
Everything about him was beautiful!
He was a miracle sent from above.
Thought: Worrying about what others think keeps you from hearing God's voice.
Oh Jana, these posts absolutely touch my soul. You have a beautiful way with words. Looking forward to His plans for you!!!!!
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